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Lately, I've been told alotm and by many people, that i'm heartless and emotionless because I don't express how i'm feeling or show any emotion to anything that goes on around me. So, I get made out to be someone who is stone cold. So, how do I tell them it's not because I don't care, that I don't express how I feel, it's because i'm paralysed. Everything happening, it's suffocating me, slowly drowning me and sometimes I just see everything and how bad people make it. It's heartbreaking and it's sad. How do I tell them that I don't tell them how I feel inside because if I did, it'd hurt them to know that I dream of death, of just not being

I gave him my heart, and he fucking ripped it out and tore it apart. He told me he loved me, he told me i was the only one. He told me he would do anything for me. He said all he wanted was my happiness...He told me he wanted me forever...He said he wanted to marry me. He even gave me a ring. He didn't even mean it..everything he did and said was a sick fucking lie. But i did love him, I still do, and i believed it all. I absorbed it all like a sponge. ...